Do goths dream about electric waifus?

Hello, sweethearts!

As you have probably noticed, I'm quite keen on drawing. And is there better topic for drawings than my favourite character from my favourite game?

Of course no, she is the best!

Because in "NieR: Automata" it's common to run into waterfalls, I decided to draw Binnie (yeah, I gave 2B an affectionate nickname) washing herself in one. I wanted to picture clash of her two characteristics: sexiness and innocence. For me, she is the most attractive character in the world of game characters (and rivalry here is strong!). In the same time she is also very sweet and innocent. Remember the part of the prologue when 2B observes birds? Or, later, is astonished by the rockets? Or every time when the game is left idle and she starts to stretch? Then you know what I'm talking about.

But this post isn't mean to boast I drew something... Okay, not only. I actually want to show whole drawing process!

Before I start, I want to set some things. Yes, there will be a little bit of nudity in this fan art (who takes bath in clothes?), but only a little bit. No, I have nothing against very sexy fan arts as long as they are kept tasteful. And no, I don't mind fanservice at all if it's done fair. What do I mean by "fair fanservice"? Well, for example, if male characters in the game have "normal" clothes, armours and so on, and females have only very revealing ones, that expose most of their bodies, then it's not fair. If there are characters who are only meant to be an eye candy, without any personality, then it's not fair too. Actually, a prime example of fair fanservice is in "NieR: Automata". Characters not only look amazing, but they also have deep personalities and different, complex motives. Player can blow up 2B's skirt... But there is no problem with blowing up 9S' pants and admiring his legs. And if someone prefers sexy, not-always-dressed men, then there are Adam and Eve.

Waiter, there are shirtless bishounen in my game!

 Tl;dr: Yoko Taro is a genius fair fanservice is when everyone are treated equally. And Yoko Taro is a genius.

Okay, enough for the start, let's get down to drawing.

The picture itself is digital, but I still started with a traditional sketch. Reason is simple: it's much easier for me, especially, when the drawing is more complicated.

As you can see, I always start with a head. I don't know if it's a proper way of drawing, but damn, I've been doing it for years and it's worked. After drawing the head's silhouette I proceed down...

...and down...

By the way, while drawing this I realised I can't draw boobs. Well, fuck.

...and after I'm done with the rest of the body (this time it was only waist, the rest would not be visible) I go back to the head. I draw face...

Eyes must be big and innocent!

...and hair.

After I finish the sketch, I scan it and transfer to my laptop.

I used to do the line art with fineliner, but after I changed my pencils it's not necessary.

Then I can proceed with drawing the digital version. Now, I use three programs: MyPaint 1.0, Krita 4.1.5 and GIMP 2.8. This time the last one wasn't used except adding the copyright note before uploading the picture to my DeviantArt account (old habit).

My main workplace.

I usually do the line art with PenBrush. I don't change the default brush settings, they're okay

The fact I can rotate the picture while drawing makes it much easier.

After I finish line art of the body, I upload it to Krita...

Person who invented OpenRaster extention is my hero.

...and colour it. I used to do the colouring in MyPaint, but, sadly, it lacks the filling tool and colouring with brushes would take ages.

Because Krita allows filling lines on other layer than I use, I always do that out of convenience. I also set the tool to add two pixels of filling under the line art. MyPaint's PenBrush doen't have sharp edges and I don't want any half-transparent pixels in my drawing.

The layer with filling looks like that.

Then I start doing the face.

Problem with eyebrows' colour is inevitable...

Doesn't matter, how hard I try, eyes never have the same size. Never.

Then I do the hair.

They are wet so they are a little bit darker.

I could finish with just one colour, many artists do something like that... But not me. Hair must look like hair, not a colourful stain.

But I must admit, drawing every fucking hair separately is annoying...

I mostly use three colours: one for the "hair base" and two for hair strands. Because I always end beyond the "hair base", I need to clean it up and erase the addictional pixels.

It's even more annoying...

A little checkup how Binnie looks with her face and hair...

My precious darling.

And I can take care of the water. Because I drew more body than will be visible, I had to cover it with addictional layers so it wouldn't look odd after I draw the background (erasing it would be too risky, I didn't want to touch the already finished layers).

I also added some water dropping from 2B's hair.

And, last but not least, the background (or "being pissed because I suck at drawing water").

After swithing off the colour layer I could position the waterfall more easily.

For waterfall I used two brushes: a half-transparent drawing one and a smearing one.

Because falling water was visible behing the foam, I had to make it a little bit transparent.

And a thicker foam.

Then I did the waves. I painted them on two layers, one behind 2B and one in front of her. I used the similar brushes to the waterfall ones.

Then I had to export the file, frame it and...

...it's done! Then I added the copyright note and uploaded the piece on my DeviantArt account. If you want to, you can download it there.

To be honest, I'm quite proud of this drawing. I think I captured Binnie's personality pretty well. Not to mention how much time it took me. Drawing isn't easy, especially the digital one...

PS Answering the question in the title: yes, they do. You have no idea how many times I have dreamt about "NieR: Automata" and its characters, especially my sweet Binnie. But I don't mind...




Image sources:
My beloved Binnie: https://www.polygon.com/2018/7/9/17549578/nier-automata-long-story-short-novel-release-date
Adam and Eve: https://nierautomata.wiki.fextralife.com/file/Nier-Automata/Adam_And_Eve.jpg?v=1516112364869

Stop calling me an ideology!

Hello, sweethearts!

This post won't be very pleasant. There are two reasons: primo, the subject is pretty serious. Secundo, I'm pissed. I'm absolutely, royally pissed and I'm never pleasant, when pissed.

Proper representation of me now.

And I'm pissed, because I'm sick of being treated like I wasn't a human being only because I'm not straight.

If someone follows news about Poland then they know the situation of Polish LGBT+ society is pretty bad. Homosexual couples don't have any opportunity to legalise their relationships. There are no same sex-marriages. They aren't allowed to adopt a child. The list goes on and on, but the worst thing is even discussing equal rights for non-hetero people is difficult as hell. The reason is simple: conservative politicians (mind the fact actual government is conservative) and mass media created a public enemy of us. According to them, we are not people, who just want to have normal life. We are "LGBT ideology", who spread "homopropaganda" and want to "destroy Polish families".

Sounds ridiculous, right? And what if I told you everything I had just written really happens?

"The LGBT dictatorship is coming. How to defend ourselves against it?"

The photo above is a cover of March issue of one of the most conservative magazines. Inside, article's author wrote that LGBT+ society wants to take control over world, rejects laws of nature (seems someone has never heard about animals' homosexuality...) and "LGBT+ declaration, signed by Warsaw's president, is a joining to nihilist experiment of social engineering" (don't ask me, what the fuck does that mean, i have no idea). The worst thing is, he was completely serious about this and there are many people, who think the same.

In October Kampania Przeciwko Homofobii (A Campaign against Homophobia), a non-governmental organisation fighting for LGBT+ rights, organised Rainbow Friday. Aim of this event was to spread tolerance in schools and show support for non-hetero pupils. Schools were supposed to organise lessons about equality and different sexual orientations. They also got special materials, for example posters and badges with mottos like "I'm a tolerant teacher". Do I have to say that rightists almost boiled when they heard about it? The chairman of Stały Komitet Rady Ministrów (sorry, I won't translate all organs' names, I don't want to get them wrong) called it an "indoctrination of youth", Wojciech Cejrowski (traveler, writer, journalist, rightist) wrote on his Twitter it was "teaching children perverted sexual acts" and "sexual abuse" and, on top of that, Ministry of Education decided to ban whole thing.

*claps* Great, just great. I'm sure children were delighted that the country takes care of them, especially LGBT+ ones.

On 20th of July The March of Equality was organised in Białystok. About 800 people took part in this peaceful demonstration. However, many people (especially soccer fans and Catholics) didn't like the idea of LGBT+ and people who support them showing that they, well, exist. And while people praying and wandering with banners saying "mom and dad are the most precious treasure in the world" (like it had something to do with being non-straight... Also, what with people who are infertile? Or just don't want to have children?) were rather harmless, soccer fans decided to attack the March. Yeah, you read it right: people got attacked just for taking part in an equality demonstration. They had stones and bottles thrown on them, got beat and kicked, also after the event ended. The March was protected by police, but even they had problems with attackers. Wanna see the hell? Type "marsz równości białystok 2019" in YouTube search bar. I dare you.

Oh, and don't forger about the man, who brought a baby to the anti-LGBT+ manifestation.

Father of the Year, goddammit.

Actually, Polish Church as a whole is very anti-LGBT+, to the point, that people leave Catholicism at all just because they're fed up with it. Catholic media often bash us for our sole existence and, when we try to defend ourselves, they say we "attack Church". Yeah, but when Church attacks us, everything's right. Archbishop Jędraszewki even called us "rainbow disease". When he got called out for this (of course, not by rightists, they think it was okay), he defended himself, saying he didn't mean people are, he meant ideology.

Once more, with bigger letters.

WE ARE PEOPLE, NOT AN IDEOLOGY!!!

Of course, it's not the end!

Last month "Gazeta Polska" ("The Polish Newspaper") announced stickers with crossed rainbow and "LGBT-free zone" writing will be added to new issues. After several chains of shops (including one of the most popular media and press products selling one, Empik) announced they wouldn't distribute said issues, "Gazeta Polska" cancelled its plans... Only to start distributing "LGBT ideology-free zone" stickers.

Holy. Motherfucking. Shit.

WE ARE PEOPLE, NOT AN IDEOLOGY!!!

And how many fucking times am I fucking supposed to fucking say that?!

There is a project called Stop Pedofilii (Stop Paedophilia), led by a pro-life (or rather anti-choice) non-governmental organisation. They present themselves as fighting against sexual harassment of children... While they fight with sexual education. Yep. In Polish schools there is no sexual education, only "wychowanie do życia w rodzinie" (roughly translates into "upbringing to life in family"), which has nothing to do with sexual education. In case someone didn't know the consequences of it, children aren't properly taught about their bodies, adolescence and, the most important, that no one should touch them without their consent and what to do in case of harassment... Which means there is higher probability of them being the victims of sexual abuse, because they have no idea what's going on. Do people associated with Stop Pedofilii care about it? No. They are too busy spreading lies that sexual education is "promoting homosexualism, masturbation and other sexual activities". They also do everything to make people associate LGBT+ with paedophilia. Sounds absurd? Yes. Hard to believe? Yes. Do you need evidence? Here you are:

"Paedophilia occurs 20 times more frequently among homosexuals."

I couldn't believe some people can be that dumb... Until I spotted exactly the same banner on my way to university. So yes, it happens, it happens all the time. Stop Pedofilii also spent most of Summer collecting signatures under sexual education banning bill. And people kept signing it...

And now the crème de la crème, the last straw that pushed me to writing this post.

On 10th and 11th of August in Kielce a disco polo festival was held. Disco polo is a very popular in Poland type of dance music, characterised by simple melodies and lyrics. Nowadays most of songs are about sex, usually described in very straightforward, even vulgar way... Which didn't stop people from bringing small children to Kielce's festival. Yes, people brought children to listen songs about fucking and see dancers doing rather erotic choreography. More, one of vocalists actually approached a little girl on the audience and sang to her "you can shake your butt, you move beautifully, you've just become an object of desire". Fuck the context, he basically told her she had a nice ass. A LITTLE GIRL. WHERE WERE ALL THOSE FIGHTERS, WHO PROTECT THE CHILDREN FROM SEXUALISATION?!

Oh, I forgot, there were battling "LGBT ideology". Talk about double standards...





Image sources:
Pissed gif: https://media1.tenor.com/images/68bdb7f778cf76bfaa256ebf53164558/tenor.gif?itemid=5591675
"Do Rzeczy" cover: https://wiadomosci.wp.pl/nadciaga-dyktatura-lgbt-homoterror-okladki-tygodnikow-6360396706306177a
Father of the Year: https://poranny.pl/marsz-rownosci-w-bialymstoku-mezczyzna-ktory-zaslanial-sie-dzieckiem-przed-policja-zostal-zatrzymany-zdjecia/ga/c1-14293793/zd/37465039
Homophobic car: http://www.tokfm.pl/Tokfm/7,130517,23981273,we-wroclawiu-pojawil-sie-plakat-laczacy-homoseksualizm-z-pedofilia.html